I have a problem.
I shot the last picture (the one above) for Blood Unquiet in October last year.
I haven't been able to shoot anything serious since then. Winter isn't a good season for photography here in Estonia and even more so when the winter is snowless like the last one.
I worked hard on my exhibition throughout most of the spring which culminated with the show in April-May. I worked hard on my fundraiser for Photoville since March - I finished shipping prints to contributors just a few weeks ago. I'm almost done organizing the trip to New York in September. I've made arrangements for two more exhibitions starting next week. I'm working full time on a non-photography related position. I try hard to find some time for physical exercising.
Yet I feel empty because I've not made any pictures.
One of my friends told me that he feels like his photographic skills are degrading when he cannot go out making pictures at least once a week. I admire him. I feel my photographic skills must be nonexistent by now. It could well be so.
On the other hand, I hope my photographic thinking has advanced during that time. I've gotten some feedback to Blood Unquiet, I know what the strong and weak sides are. I have thoughts how to improve, I have ideas for some new pictures. It almost feels they're in reach, but then I can't grab the camera and make those damn pictures.
I have a solid concept for a new project, I have made some investments to gear needed for it. I've found some good locations. Yet I haven't taken a single picture, even draft. I hate myself when I think about it.
I know better than ever what makes a good photograph, yet I can't make any.